WHY TAKING VACATION SOMETIMES ALSO MEANS UNPLUGGING FROM YOURSELF.
I didn’t realize how exhausted I was when I left New York until very recently. It took a few days of silence and isolation to get back to normal, but once I did, I learned a valuable lesson about myself.
“While planing my trip back in December, I got into this autopilot mode, where 4 hours of sleep was enough and all projects suddenly had a deadline that was very close.”
I don’t know many people, who at one point or another didn’t feel burned out. While New York city life is exciting and fuels you in many ways, it’s also very draining and leaving my favorite city once in a while makes me fall in love with it again over and over again. I love taking vacations from the Big Apple. Last year was no exception.
While planing my trip back in December, I got into this autopilot mode, where 4 hours of sleep was enough and all projects suddenly had a deadline that was very close. Multitasking became a must to finish everything in time and time was running out.
I got everything done, packed my bags and set off on my 3 months long adventure. But 2 weeks into the trip, I suddenly felt exhausted. So tired, that I slept 10 hours a day and couldn’t even find the energy to write, which I usually love.
I meditated, took naps and even checked the internet for any potential poisonings that caused fatigue. Nothing seemed to make sense. I was tired, irritable, introverted.
Trip to Thailand was very quiet and I even felt rested for a while, but as soon as I got back to Saigon, things reverted back to where they were.
I arrived in Mui Ne, Vietnam, 3 weeks into my journey and decided to stay in my hotel room for a couple of days, away from people and from the noise, from any signs of civilization and just rest. The first two days I slept. I’d turn my computer on for a couple of hours a day to check on my company back home and do whatever was absolutely necessary to do, then off to resting mode again.
“In the midst of my amazing busy and exciting life in New York, I forgot to rest and almost got burned out. I got too much of both the good and the bad thing.”
On day three, things started feeling better. I gradually started adding things like daily yoga and getting up with sunrise, going to be before 11 and other healthy habits to my routine and finally, almost a month into my trip, I started feeling like me again. Like the me I was supposed to be.
It took me a while to realize that nothing was really wrong with me, but one thing- I was drained, exhausted, burned out! In the midst of my amazing busy and exciting life in New York, I forgot to rest and almost got burned out. I got too much of both the good and the bad thing.
I have always considered myself being good at taking care of myself, I eat healthy, I get my sleep, I try not let stress into my life. I could definitely use more exercise, but that was on my to-do list, of course.
I knew I was tired when I left, that was one of the main reasons I decided to make this long trip- I needed time for myself, to regroup and to recharge. But even knowing that, I still underestimated how tired I actually was. It wasn’t just the work and the various projects, it was also all the fun things I was doing that got me so tired.
Now that I do yoga every day, wake up with the sun and actually sit down to eat, rather than grabbing something quick, while reading emails and reviewing to-do lists, I see the actual difference in myself.
I am not tired, I am more patient, I don’t react to things and don’t hide from people. I am still in the process of rebuilding the balance withing, but even work stuff started floating smoother. When I got back to myself, things around me calmed down as well.
Simple and so self-explanatory, right? Why do we forget that balance in our lives starts within?
So, I am loving this feeling I have found here so much that I gave myself a promise to continue taking time for myself when I get back to New York, even if I don’t feel like I am tired and need it.
Yoga every day, wake up early and greet the day with meditation. ]
And that’s my biggest lesson from this trip so far!
Have you ever felt this way before?
Have you found yourself burned out even when you seem to be taking time to rest?
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